Tonight is the last night I sleep in my own bedroom...for a while, at least. Strange feeling, but a good feeling, nonetheless. I've said it a million times before and I'll say it again...I'm quite blessed. Very, very blessed.
This weekend was a good one, ghetto phone calls aside. I've made peace and I feel at ease--somewhat. Once again, I apologize for the verbal attack and I'm looking forward to becoming friends again. I suppose it just takes some getting used to. Who knows where this decision will take me? Us? Is there even an "us" at this point? I guess time will have to tell. Speaking of which, the time has come to raise the standards pole. Just going to have to wait and see who's brave enough to vault their way over it. And although I do appreciate an honest effort, I'd love to see a successful jump for once. If you're in, you're in and if you're not in then you're most definitely out. Make up your mind for once. Don't straddle between two sides. You've got to be honest with me...with us, actually (*vomit*). Its one or the other. Just bear in mind, as Fergie once said, "I'm gonna make make make you work, make you work work, make you work".
Aside from that...
Decking out our place today (as well as last night) was great. It looks really, really, really good. Its certainly got a lot of character. And although the thought of working while mastering sixteen units, on top of rent/utilities/and such seems intimidating at first sight, I absolutely cannot wait to take on the challenge. This year will be an interesting one.
In other news...
Songs of the Weekend:
This weekend was a good one, ghetto phone calls aside. I've made peace and I feel at ease--somewhat. Once again, I apologize for the verbal attack and I'm looking forward to becoming friends again. I suppose it just takes some getting used to. Who knows where this decision will take me? Us? Is there even an "us" at this point? I guess time will have to tell. Speaking of which, the time has come to raise the standards pole. Just going to have to wait and see who's brave enough to vault their way over it. And although I do appreciate an honest effort, I'd love to see a successful jump for once. If you're in, you're in and if you're not in then you're most definitely out. Make up your mind for once. Don't straddle between two sides. You've got to be honest with me...with us, actually (*vomit*). Its one or the other. Just bear in mind, as Fergie once said, "I'm gonna make make make you work, make you work work, make you work".
Aside from that...
Decking out our place today (as well as last night) was great. It looks really, really, really good. Its certainly got a lot of character. And although the thought of working while mastering sixteen units, on top of rent/utilities/and such seems intimidating at first sight, I absolutely cannot wait to take on the challenge. This year will be an interesting one.
In other news...
Songs of the Weekend:
- Tourist Trap - Bright Eyes (My greatest fear)
- Oh, My Love - Inara George (My wishie-washie emotions)
- Tulips - Bloc Party (More wishie-washie, but hopeful, nonetheless, emotions)
- Science vs. Romance - Rilo Kiley (A reality check)
- I Told You So - Carrie Underwood (Some more fears)
- More Boys I Meet - Carrie Underwood (A good laugh)
- Baby Girl - Sugarland (A hope, a dream...a prayer)
- Gives You Hell - All American Rejects (The sick satisfaction I get out of all this)
- Teenage Love Song - Rilo Kiley (Some whining)
- The Climb - Miley Cyrus (A pep-talk)
- 1999 - Prince (A shake-it-all-loose-and-DGAF-sort-of-pick-me-up-song)
Random. But that's really the only way I could sum it all up.
I feel anxious. Not so sure whether or not its a good anxious or not, but either way I feel great. Its been a while since I've had something to look forward to, something to be hopeful for. Wonder what's next...?
And, as always, Rilo Kiley's Science vs. Romance continues to define my love life...or lack thereof. Hence, the name of this very blog.
Partofmewantstoforgetthewholethingandjustyeall"FUCKIT,LET'SDOOTHISSHIT,DAMMIT!"andstartalloveragainandgoaboutourbusinessasifnothing'shappened,nothing'schanged...justotofeelhumanagain.
And the other part of me is a bit more sensible than that.
I feel anxious. Not so sure whether or not its a good anxious or not, but either way I feel great. Its been a while since I've had something to look forward to, something to be hopeful for. Wonder what's next...?
And, as always, Rilo Kiley's Science vs. Romance continues to define my love life...or lack thereof. Hence, the name of this very blog.
Partofmewantstoforgetthewholethingandjustyeall"FUCKIT,LET'SDOOTHISSHIT,DAMMIT!"andstartalloveragainandgoaboutourbusinessasifnothing'shappened,nothing'schanged...justotofeelhumanagain.
And the other part of me is a bit more sensible than that.
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